it's hard to think deeply these days
but i shall try

at times, it seems like a black hole and i really have to run and run and run to avoid it
in my dreams i never seem to be able to run away
i get scared and somehow no matter how fast i try to run, something is holding me back
i end up waking up in a start or trying to prolong the dream that i might escape

the realization that i can't escape on my own no matter how hard i try hits me in the face

it's hard to think about pain these days
but i shall try

pain and suffering that's all around
ever present because... it's part of life?
shall we just accept it nonchalantly?
shall we just turn a blind eye?
when loved ones start fading away
when precious memories are swept along with the winds
why?
why can't we all go back to the time when we loved and cared from the bottom of our hearts and joy was abounding?
when the world seemed so much friendlier and peaceful?
or when it seemed that people genuinely cared?

why can't i turn back time and start afresh?

break me down
clothe me with humility
Your love, strength and righteousness
for i am Yours